A New Day is breaking...

So....one of the fun things I have just discovered is Blogs. I just happened to hear about them a month ago from my friend Jon Backens(who is a computer whiz). I have often been fascinated by the way we communicate with each other(Whether via e-mail, phone, snail mail, pony express, fax, morse code, etc.) I have decided to open my own blog to put my thoughts and allow others to respond to them.(So please feel free to respond, I'd love to dialogue)
I have begun to realize what life is like for a 9-5 working person. For the past 6 months I have worked 8 hours a day for a construction company. It has been a great experience and I am grateful for the job. It has often been a struggle to find the motivation to push on throughout my weeks.(Many times, the thought of the next paycheck has been my passion, sad!) I have wondered what God(Almighty, sovereign, In Control, Love) has been teaching me through these times.
You see, I know Jesus. He is DA Man. I mean it. He is the coolest dude I have ever met and I am not legally insane. He is the closest friend I have and loves me perfectly. Not only that, when I was dead in my sins, He died on my behalf to give glory to His Father, and to bring me joy in Himself. He's DA Man. That being said, I know that everyday, it will be a struggle to Know Him(Not talking about "knowledge", but an intimate relationship, where I see Him as God, Father, Lover, and Savior.) I was just talking with my wife(Kristen, I'm nuts about her!) about our apparent struggle to enjoy God. You see, it is much easier for us to "Know" Him when we are forced to "know" Him.(For Example: When we are preparing a talk or B.S.(Bible Study: *Side note: I thought it would be great to name an inductive Bible study, "Not your normal B.S." I probably need to repent of that!) We don't want to look bad in front of our peers or students, so we'll prepare ourselves for them.(Stupid pride!) When it comes down to enjoying our God and taking advantage of that relationship with Him, we are the most apathetic creatures alive! We would rather watch every single season of Alias in one week than do that(We haven't done that...yet). You see there is a problem with our hearts.
We would rather, save face, then be honest. We would rather cover ourselves with a veil than let the light expose who we are. We perceive that Jesus would be clearly seen when we live hypocritically, but in reality a life of repentance is what we need. What a great lie we put our trust in! Do we believe in His Grace that moves us to Dependence? Do we believe He is the greatest treasure? Do we believe that He is the one that can bring this camel(Yes, I compare myself to a two humped, spitting mammal) through the needle's eye(Literally, the eye of a needle: Read Matthew 19)? Do I believe that God uses all circumstances in our lives to drive us more deeply in Love with His glory?(Even my shortcomings?)
Oh, God is Sovereign. His ways are not my ways...He is a mystery worth diving into. He is a powerful river, worth living in. He is an unstoppable wave, worth letting go in. My job right now is in his hands. My joy is found in Jesus. I don't want my passion in life to be a paycheck or my reputation...I want Him.